An empty day

So, the Fuso Szulc back to the workplace of Eric Ferguson.
To fix what was wrong.

Another two nights in a hotel.
And this day to spend doing what?

Not having a rental car anymore options are more limited than ever.
The area where action or entertainment can be found is limited now to walking distance.
The noisy hotel is in the part of San Diego called Kearny Mesa.
Crossed by several highways.
Dotted with small shopping centres.
And low rise apartment buildings.

There is no park anywhere to be in a simulation of nature.
To hear birds.
To feel grass and trees.
To be in a natural and peaceful environment.

There is no place where one can sit outside, enjoy a cup of tea and a nice vista.

The only option available is to remain in the hotel room and be miserable.
Or to walk to a shopping centre.
But to do what?

At about 4 miles from the hotel is the Clairemont Shopping Centre.
Where is a movie theatre.
Some days ago the most ridiculous film “Star Trek” was seen there.

The plan is to walk over there.
Very carefully because in San Diego and in many more places in the USA, pedestrians are rare and not safe.
Cars are not used to them and therefore every intersection where a street needs to be crossed has to be approached and negotiated with uttermost care.

What is harder to be careful about is the drive by shootings.
Frequently in the San Diego Union, the local newspaper, stories are published of pedestrians who were gunned down by somebody passing in a car.
And this is felt like an option of occurrence because it fits in the context of these days.
As of the day of the recent arrival in the USA, 12 days ago, others have pushed life in a negative spiral that still is going down and down.
Where it is very likely that some other catastrophe could be met.
The only way to avoid this calamity and survive in the current situation is using the core of the mind and the soul.
To counter the negative energy that is surrounding.
To avoid sharing the destiny that is imposed.
To be free of the context that is spinning around.
To stay desperately on the own line of life avoiding with everything available to give up and accept following the tracks of the others leading to dissolvement.

So the plan is to walk the 4 miles to the Clairemont Shopping Centre.
To experience that physical exercise as walking the line of life.
As a meditation where each step is like unifying with earth, with the roots of existence and being inside the own destiny.
Then no drive by shooting can take place.
No car can run the pedestrian over.
The shopping centre will be reached safely and happily.

A lunch will be enjoyed somewhere in a restaurant in the Clairemont Shopping Centre.
Maybe a small Japanese sashimi?

And then the movie theatre will be revisited.
Not to see “Star Trek” again because that would certainly lead to ending the life.
Maybe some other film might be able to enlighten the darkened existence.



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